not a very happy post..

well, im back home finally from camp~
havent been able to write here in a long while huh..
you can say it would be my first real weekend in 3 weeks.
since i had field camp, then SOL/confinement, then SIT test, then tahan another 5 days until now.
its mentally draining, if not entirely physically o.o

疲れた！！！！>A<

well im home~ so time to have a rest before tomorrow's book in (: がんばります！

ah well.. anyways the main thing here is that i found something that i dont like..
which is when people choose to criticize others with words, not considering their feelings..

just think. if someone were to say bad stuff about you, people like you and your personal beliefs, would one be able to still smile happily and feel good?


well, it may be a joke in one way or another,
but words are sharper than knives. they can cut beyond the human flesh, into one's emotions and feelings.
usually the scars here do not heal as easily.
thats why people say the tongue is one of the most dangerous weapons around..

okay so specifically..im really feeling this way 'cause　i really feel hurt when people criticize other churches from being in the spotlight.
do you know that the newspaper is profit-driven?
do you know that they print stuff that people WANT to read?

most of the stuff we see and hear in the media is simmered till it's blown-up in scale, added together with a few drops of controversy and served on a platter of commotion.
firstly, the church, other than being our place we head to every sunday, its still a welfare organization which LIKE ALL ORGANIZATIONS, ARE SUBJECTED TO PERIODIC CHECKS.

so what if city harvest gets checked for its funds? hasnt buddhist temples been checked before? hasnt mosques been checked before? hasnt all places which collect free-will donations BEEN CHECKED BY AUTHORITIES?

so what is the big deal made up with chc????
WHY do people keep CRITICIZING us?
its not the first time..
it hurts bad.. really bad..
even its not me or my church directly, we are all still brothers and sisters through Christ.
I FEEL FOR THEM.

its heartbreaking when people keeps harping on this kind of media-blown trivial matters and making all sorts of hurtful comments..
what happened to mutual respect?
what happened to love among all people?

if there's one thing i cant bear to see,
its when people throw swords and knives and axes and whatnot at each other,
in.the.form.of.words.

i feel that people should have basic respect and courtesy for each other,
not scolding each other,
not maligning each other,
not bad-mouthing each other,
not saying stuff that one knows that will actually hurt another person emotionally, no matter how deep....

we all need to watch our mouths carefully,
never hurt each other emotionally, no matter what.
thats my belief.
i wasnt specifically brought up this way, or taught specifically in church.

because God loves me, i can love others..
i feel for others.
the care.
the concern.
the emotions that brought each and everyone together as friends.
the LOVE.

lets keep it going.
make our lives blissful and happy with those around us (:

Thank God for this opportunity for me to let out my feelings..
i've been really bottling up all of this very long..
i'll never get angry.
i'll never criticize others.
i can only pray that the world will become a better place by God's grace..

each day is a new day.
lets start it once again happy, refreshed and ready to conquer anything that comes our way! ^^